Feeling morbid

Okay so the reason behind this post is extremely morbid and a tad bit creepy. I actually don't know why I'm doing this but I guess I have some sort of reason in the back of my mind.

I was on youtube and eventually got to that weird side, as everyone does eventually. I saw this video of weird (and possibly supernatural) and unexplained events. One of the events listed was about that girl Elisa Lam who was found in a water tank on the roof of a hotel in L.A back in 2013. It's unknown how she got in there and a video of her in an elevator the night she went missing is really creepy. She's seen pressing all of the buttons on the elevator and then getting out and it looks like she's talking to someone who you can't see on camera. I am actually getting goosebumps writing about this because that's just so creepy.. like wtf? What happened to that poor girl tho.

Any who, I found out that she had a blog. I read a couple of her post back from 2012. Nothing weird or anything but I guess it got me curious as to whether people would find this blog if I died? But does that really matter? What would this blog say about me? Anything? No. It wouldn't tell you who I am or how I feel when I lay in bed at night, surrounded by my thoughts and the muffled sounds of puppies barking at each other (Nala just had her second litter of pups on March 17th).

But maybe that's what I should start. Only like .. 4? people follow this blog and I don't even know why.... oh wait they're the only people that would actually click the link that I would nonstop post on facebook back in 2011 or whenever I made this blog. As I was saying, before I got off topic, maybe I should start using this again... to leave some sort of trace of me, that no one really knew about me until after I die some tragic death and then this blog is discovered. Is that even how it works? You die in some weird way that causes an investigation.. and then they find every possible account linked to you? Because if that was the case they'll probably find a Keek account (remember that weird and short lived app that was similar to vine?), a weheartit account (similar to instagram I think) and many more weird accounts that I would prefer nobody finds. But this would be the one that they take the time to examine and look for unusual things that could possibly point to the cause of my death.

Okay I feel like I am getting dark. On the lighter side of things.. I THINK I AM GETTING THE IPHONE 6S ANY DAY NOW. this is a huge accomplishment to me because I have been saving up the money forever now.

Oh also I am going on a trip to Washington D.C. this summer, in July to be specific. Maybe that's where I'll die and then someone wearing a police badge will discover upon this blog and be reading this post at this very moment. ... Sorry getting morbid again. I love life and don't plan on dying anytime soon. Don't you worry. Why would I die right after getting the iPhone 6s? Unquestionable.

Hey this is kinda funny

It's been years since I've been here. I don't know what made me even think of searching for this blog. But here I am. And I know no one's going to read this but I guess it's just for myself.

WOW, WHERE DO I EVEN START?


I guess I can just list a few facts about myself? Sure, lets go with that.

• I'm in 10th grade, almost 11th
• My close friends are: Amanda, Kimmie, Maliyah, Stephanie, Mari, Cinthia and Ashley
• I now have five dogs.

• I still haven't had my second boyfriend. (my first was Ben in 7th grade)
• Ruby's been dating Bryce for 6 months now
• Okay so that wasn't a fact about me but I felt it was important
• I'm currently in my 3rd year of Spanish and it sucks so much.
• I'm waaaay over my crush on Nate Ivin, especially since he moved away
• There's this hot guy named Isaac who shook my hand
• But he's a senior.
• UGH
• My mom has a job at this place called Kindred, and hopefully it will last
• They're paying her about $54 an hour so YAS
• My fav shows are: The Big Bang Theory, Dexter, Impractical Jokers, Fresh Off The Boat, Gravity Falls, Naked & Afraid and Criminal Minds
• Fav color is still purple
• Fav food is pasta. 
• Seriously, anything pasta
• Also, I love cheese.
• Cheesy noodles, cheesy chips, cheesy jokes 
• I should be working on a huge Spanish project that's due in two days.
• I have to make empanadas for it
• For some reason, mom bought the stuff that spring rolls are wrapped in and thought it was the same thing
• I still am a HUGE AF DIRECTIONER
• AND DON'T EVEN MENTION ZAYN LEAVING TO BE WITH NAUGHTY BOY BC I WILL DROP KICK YOU TO 2012.
• I also love Ed Sheeran, Vance Joy, Arctic Monkeys, Taylor Swift, Mumford & Sons, and Of Monsters and Men.
• I miss Mahayla being one of my close friends
• I have no plans for summer, like always.,, is this even a new fact?
• Fav songs at the moment: Mess is mine (Vance Joy), Force of Nature (Bea Miller), Shut Up And Dance (Walk The Moon)
• Ed Sheeran makes me so happy.
• I am enjoying life and trying to live it to the fullest
• Or at least as full as someone with only one source of driving available (aka my mom who works like 4 days a week)
• btw I have yet to get my license 
• I plan on taking drivers ed in june or july and then taking my drive test and getting my license
• But I still don't know how I'm getting a car???
• WISH ME LUCK
• pls
• I need all the luck I can get

I think that's all for now and maybe next time i'll tell funny stories so I can forget about this blog, and then remember it and read all of these stories and laugh to myself at 1am. bye or as they say in spanish.... adios!!!!

Running For Senator!

Hey it's me again! Sorry I haven't posted in a while..
But anyway,
There's this campaign going on at school. People are running for 8th grade Senator. I am running, too! But I'm running against 12 people. And about 5 of them are my good friends. I'm not worried about who I'm voting for, but who's going to be voting for me. Honestly, this is like a popularity contest. And I'd have to say I'm not that popular. Or not at least compared to some other candidates. I just hope the odds are ever in my favor.. if that means I win; I just stole that quote from The Hunger Games :) 

Debate

Tomorrow I have to debate in class. Well either tomorrow or Monday. I really don't want to do this inf front of the whole class, and against another team. We don't even know whether were opposing or proposition! I am really nervous. I have to think fast and find evidence in my debate cards to try to have an opposing argument. This isn't going to be an easy task, so wish me luck!

My Favorite Ice Cream Flavor :)

OMG! I LOVE ICE CREAM!
Well, who doesn't? Crazy people don't. Haha, no offence to crazy people!
*** My Favorite Ice Cream Flavor(s) Are:

1. Mint Chocolate Chip
2. Coffee :)

Haha that's it!!! But I love them! I just thought I had to share that with you. Especially since I'm eating some Coffee ice cream. It's super duper good, but it makes my face cold...
Haha (:

Don't Be Insecure

This is sort of an attachment to the last blog post. I know I said sometimes I'm insecure. But I don't want to be. And I don't want you to be either.
Love life, cause it's the only one you got.
Life is like a coin, you can only spend it once, you can only spend it one way.
Be yourself. It's boring if you try to be someone else, or live in some one's shadow.
Don't be jealous of someone else, they have just enough of a right to be jealous of you!!

Don't waste your life wishing you were someone else. You are amazing just the way you are :)

You are different, but that's not bad. Everyone is different, in their own way. Theres something different about everyone, which is what makes they their own person, which makes them unique and special in their own way. It's what makes you, YOU!


Some of my favorite quotes:

In the end it's not going to matter how many breaths you took, but how many moments took your breath away.

Shoot for the moon, even if you miss, you'll land among the stars.

Everything I'm not makes me everything I am.

Sometimes I'm Insecure

I wouldn't consider myself popular. I am known, not by all, but by many. Sometimes I just wish I was super popular, and everyone wasted to be friends with me. There are people like that at school. There is Lizzy Golden, Kennedy Long, Paige Wagner, Makena Allen, and Mariah Quigley. But those are just a few. The sad part is that like Kennedy and Paige probably don't even know my name, yet I know there's, cause they're popular!!!
They are so pretty, and are friends with everyone. And everyone loves them. And everyone knows who they are. But I don't get what makes them different from everyone else?! Why are they so popular?
Sometimes it makes me angry to just think about it. Sometimes it makes me feel terrible. I mean, people like Lizzy and Kennedy have like 900 friends on facebook. I wish someday I could just sit down with one of them and ask these questions. I bet some of them don't even realise that they are any different from us.
But the people who are popular only hang around other populars. They don't even care to talk to people like me.
What even makes me more sad is that they get all the guys. Crime Against Nature!! ;)

Girls are like a box of crayons. The reds and blues are the populars everyone wants to use. The whites are beautiful but no one ever uses them so they don't think they're beautiful.
Only a special guy comes around and uses a black piece of paper <3

I wish popularity didn't exist and everyone saw each other as equals. I want us to still be individuals, but no one is better than someone else.
As one of my friend said too; she hates the cliques and wish they didn't exist. Sometimes they can be mean, and I've seen it before too. Oh wells.. I guess that's all!
Bye, and Thanks!!