Lassie's Goodbye

Today was a very sad day for my family. At about 4pm we took my dog, Lassie, to the vet to be put down. You might have read about her in previous blog posts. We think she was suffering from cancer, and we didn't want her to suffer anymore. It was fast and painless for her, but not for us. But I sat there with her the whole time, holding her paw.
It hasn't really hit me that Lassie is gone. Right now I'm spending the night with my sister at my Grandpas. I think I will really notice that she's gone when I get home tomorrow. She always greets us when we get back from somewhere, alongside our other dog Hooch.
Lassie was about 8 or 9 years old. We've had her ever since she was a puppy. I know she had the best life any dog could have. And I know she will never be alone or unloved. She is and always will be in our hearts. I Love You Lassie <3

I Just Love this Video :) Sure makes me wish I had a Boyfriend!!!! ~They Are so Cute Together :)

Him.

You know me. I'm just a girl.. Which means I must have a crush right?
Well I do :)

I like him because he's nice, and cute, and can always make me laugh. But I bet he has no clue that I like him. Last year I had one class with him. This year I don't have any, which really sucks!! I don't see him very much anymore. But I do run into him every now and then at school :)
Last year I thought that he might have liked me, too. But I don't know anymore. Last year there were tons of signs that he liked me :)

• He got my number off of Facebook
• He always tried to make me laugh during class
• Whenever he saw me he said "Hi" (On the first day of school this year when I was getting my schedule he yelled my name, I turn, and he says "Hey!")
• He'd bump into me in the hallways

I always talk about him to my friends (those who will listen). They all say the same thing. Either "You should ask him out!" or "Do you want me to ask him out for you?". But I always say "No." I don't want them to ask him out, or have me ask him out.
I'm afraid that he will find out that I like him, but if he doesn't like me back - that's the part I would hate! I don't want that to be spread around the school. I would be so embarrassed! I don't want people to know that I asked him out an I was rejected.

But then again, people always say if you never try, you will ever get anything you want. I really do want to go out with him. One thing I don't think anybody has ever thought about is this:
If I date him now, he probably won't be the one. Not always is that true, but it probably is for my age (being 13 in January). Even though he seems like the one at the time, he probably won't be in the future. Which does seem like a good reason to hold off on dating him. Ugh, just thinking about all of this makes my head spin.

What do you think I should do?
You can leave a comment with your opinion.
Thanks!

The Hard Part of My Life

My mom was laid off of her nursing job almost two years ago now. It's been really hard for her to find a job. She applies for more and more jobs everyday. Trust me, I go through all of the stress and melancholy of it.
People say "Well, your life seems alot better than mine". You're not me, and I'm not you. You can't tell me what my life is and isn't, and I can't say the same to you. 
Today after I got picked up from Carissa's house my mom took us straight to the Lake Stevens Food Bank, to get Christmas Baskets. It was hard for me to see all of the volunteers and Cub Scouts helping food into peoples cars. Those people had enough food and free time to give to volunteering, where we don't even have enough gas money to make it to the Library.
I wish, and hope, and pray every night that my mom gets a really good paying job (or either wins the million dollar lottery:).
You think you know me and my life, but you don't. Don't judge. But don't underestimate me, either. Everything that's happened to me made me everything I am.
I do wish I could change some things in my life, but I also love it <3

My Night At Carissa's

Ha ha, right now I'm at my friend Carissa's house. I'm having a sleepover and we're having so much fun. This is one of the many things I do in my exciting life; have sleepovers with friends. We have done so many fun things so far :)
We've been painting in her discarded book for art. And we played on the wii for a while (I kicked her butt:). Things have been interesting here.. Earlier we fought over my phone because she was texting this weird guy!! Also we played box soccer :)   It's a new game we came up with. 
Where you have a box and two walls on each side of you and your friend. Then you put the box in the middle of you two. Say "Ready, Set, GO!!!" And kick the box back and forth until someone hits the box up against the wall on their opponent's side (move stuff out of the way so you don't hurt your feet :).

The Alderwood Mall Adventure

Okay, so on Sunday I went with my cousin Megan and my aunt Pam and aunt Jo to the Alderwood Mall. We went to buy Christmas presents! I had so much fun! I got to buy six pairs or earrings!! Ruby, my sister, got to buy like four necklaces. We had Taco Time for lunch. Later in the day we went to get Italian Sodas. The ladies who were taking our orders asked us our names so they can write them on the cups, and next to us this dark man yells his name is Jafar! Then he spells it out too!! "My Name Is Jafar. . . J-A-F-A-R!!!"  We all stared at him then looked at each other and I was thinking he was scary/crazy!! Then my aunt Jo, aunt Pam, and I all sat down at this small table in the middle of the mall. Ruby and Megan (who is about twenty-five) were still at the Starbucks area getting straws. They come back and ask us "Did you see that lady?" We all look at them, puzzled. Apparently some lady came up to Ruby. Megan thought that she was going to get some parenting lecture about letting Ruby get a Mocha. Nope! She asks where Ruby got her tights!! And this lady was probably in her thirties!!

Honestly, I don't go to the mall very often. I probably haven't gone for about six months. But I don't think I've ever taken time to just look around and be happy I'm here. Which I was that day. I was grateful that my cousin paid for all of the stuff we bought and was just kind enough to take us. I think that was a pretty good, pretty great day!

Lassie

Here goes the first post to my new blog. Which just tells about events in my life as a girl. As. . . me.

Well, I have a dog named Lassie. She is about eight years old. At about the beginning of November she started getting super skinny. And before that she was super fat! So we knew something was wrong. We can't afford to take her to the vet because my mom lost her job. So we don't know what's wrong. We were going to put her down last week, but she started eating again so we didn't. But now shes not eating very much again. My mom thought she was going to die last night. So I stayed up all night with her an Lassie. That's why I didn't go to school. Right now shes still here, and I hope it stays that way.
I Love You Lassie.